Do I Want To Live Like This?

Well this has not been a fun day. There are certain days that a woman looks forward to in her life. One is her wedding day; one is the birth of her children...and then when her children grow up...she looks forward to helping her daughter choose her prom dress and then her wedding gown...she looks forward to grandchildren...etc.

Well when a MAN ruins one of those days by acting like a big baby because everything is not going according to "his" plan...it can really piss a woman off.

Seriously, I don't know why I even bother. I told him tonight, that was IT. We would not be shopping together ever again. My daughter still has not chosen a dress and when she does it will be with me and a friend or relative of my choosing. One who will realize that a young woman only gets a couple of chances to be a princess in her life...sometimes not even that many. I have never been a princess...not even once...damned if my daughter won't get to be!!

Anyway...I also have an opportunity to become a level one Reiki Master...I'm trying to decide whether to do this. It's a lot of money but I could do it in installments...I guess the question is...do I dare spend the money on something I want when I have so many bills or would that be selfish...or maybe the real question is, "Am I worth it?" I haven't figured it out yet. He tells me that's fine...but I should buy him some rum too...I'm sure he felt he was joking...but I know better...

Bosses...Bleh

Well what a week this has been. I am pretty good at my job. It's one of the things I pride myself on. But lately the job I love, has become the job I hate. I have a new boss and we just don't seem to click. I'm trying not to be too sensitive about it...but it's not working.

It's a new job compared to what I was doing, so there were new things to learn and new responsibilities and frankly I think I've handled it all quite well. The training was sketchy at best; but I've caught on.

Well for whatever reason this woman seems to be very critical about everything I do. I know I don't bow down to her the way some of them do but I've always tried to be respectful and if I ask questions, it isn't to tick her off, but I'm not taking the fall for something if I believe she's wrong. Anyway...Friday I lost it and ended up crying to the male boss I had before.

He's wonderful and was very supportive. I have no designs on him or anything, he's just a terrific boss.

But I don't know what I'm going to do about this woman. I understand some of the criticism but would it kill her to throw me a bone now and then too.

Of course to top it all off, I can't even quit. I need this job too much. Guess I could look for another one but what's the chance that it would pay as well....I just don't know what to do. Any ideas how to better get along with this woman?